merry christmas everyone! its been a wonderful season for me this year.

and i usually am very disappointed on christmas day but this christmas day feels

so different. evan is working this morning so i have most of the day to myself

and i thought i'd just write and see where this takes me. 

i have a lot to be thankful for. i forget that half the time and the other half i feel like

i don't exactly know how to be thankful. but right now my soul feels the way i imagine

a thankful person looking. with their eyes closed, a slight smile on their face, maybe a soft

hum coming out of their throats, and this overall look of just...bliss. 

i don't want to go into too much detail of how i got here. i will just say i was incredibly sick

for a couple days (to the point where i really thought maybe i should go to hospital), then 

hung out with one of the best persons i have ever met in my life. you know when you meet 

someone and things just click? and not only do things click but this person is like all the 

good and beautiful things in the world and they motivate you to be better just because of how

gorgeous their soul is? 

this has happened a few other times in my life and these people, these meetings are so
incredibly rare that after you meet them and after you hang out with them, your spirit
feels so light and dense at the same time.

so right now, i am bathing in thankfulness. that i'm healthy (even if i'm not feeling
100%) and that there are some really, truly amazing people in my life who helped create
a lot of meaningful memories in my heart. the love i feel towards each specific person is
like a deep well in my heart that is glowing warm and bubbling softly, sort of like spa
but deep. so deep. and i am bathing in it. i am thinking of all my friends and feeling
overwhelmingly grateful for you.

merry christmas.